Things that I would tell you, if we spoke like usual

Tuesday, November 12, 2024

I lost 2.3 kilos in a week. No, I didn't starve myself. I was even waiting to binge with you on your birthday but about that...

I'm down with a bad tummy, I should stop eating mushrooms for dinner daily

I finally felt cold today in the cab, the AC was getting to me. The fan in my room is running at 3 now

I'm PMS-ing and want to kill someone and my period is late by 3 days

I cried because my cab driver took the other route I don't like— going to work yesterday and coming back today. I think I also cried cause I know I am mad at you but I'd rather just cry and be angry than find a way to unpack my emotions

I cried cause I know I have to tell you this isn't working for me and I'm sure for you too

I really need to get off these medicines, it's driving me insane

I am deeply fucking disappointed in your empty promises and I don't know how you don't see you're hurting me

It took all my willpower to not lose my cool at you yesterday, I don't think you'll know or ever realise. It's my fault, I keep taking things because I don't have the bandwidth to fight

I don't like the fact that we swept our last two arguments under the rug, without a thought. It was just easy to brush it out and parking it for another day

I think you're taking me for granted

That I don't know what I'll do when I lose you— you've been a wholly important part of my life since over a year and you've seen me through the depths of hell. I don't think I've felt this dependent on someone in a long time but I will be a fucking mess when this ends and that's probably why I'm crying this much. 

Either way, this will be a hard goodbye. I wish I could explain this better. I wish you did better but I think this is it for us. 



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